#ThrowItBackThursday

Hello dears!

I know I have been horrible with blogging lately and I totally have been skipping my WTF Wednesday blogs. Lo siento mis amigos! So, as I'm sitting here doing this horrible Spanish homework I am jammin' to "Honest" by Future on Pandora. Oh! I have not discussed my small obsession with Future yet, have I? WELLLL, for those of you who live under a rock Future is not only my husband but a rapper. His hit song was "Turn on the Lights." If you haven't heard it before, take a second, and slap yourself right across the face. Okay, after you slap yourself you can watch this video and listen to my dear husband rap/sing about looking for me. (: 

Okay, back to the blog! As much as I'd like to dedicate a whole blog to Future, I won't (not yet). This blog IS about music though and a few of the songs I've been jammin' to...or "throwing it back" to! Music is my life so I'm honestly surprised I haven't done this before. I'll most definitely do it again if YOU, MY READERS, let me know about the songs you are in love with! I can put 'em up here and if you say something about them I can include that too! I've been loving some of the feed back I have been getting by the way. You guys are the ones that keep me writing, seriously. 

Quick shout out to the lovely ladies who sent me these! I love you guys. <3 Your feedback is amazing. 

       

----->Songs I'm Throwing It Back to!<-----

BTW I have  a tendency to like ratchet music, so...prepare your ears for a mix of ratchetness & amazing beats.

1. I Luv This Sh*t- August Alsina 

2. Higher Grounds-TNGHT

3.Honest-Future 

4. Right There (ft. Big Sean)- Ariana Grande 

5.Roots (Brillz Remix)- Kill the Noise 

6. Used 2-2 Chainz *Ratchet Alert*

And finally...an incredibly disturbing music video from Kanye....

7. Bound 2-Kanye West 

These are just a few of the songs I'm currently gettin' it to! I hope you enjoy them as much as I am here in this library! 

xoxo

Cynthea 

All I Want for Christmas is a Pair of Balls

Yeah, I know...the title of this entry is a bit vulgar, huh? Sorry if I offended anyone but you shouldn't be reading this blog if you weren't ready for the real stuff! So boo hoo! When I said I want balls for Christmas I didn't mean that after Christmas I plan on changing my gender, what I mean is that I really need to take my own advice and start being more assertive. It really is true when they say the nice guys finish last! My whole life people have always described me as "nice." Although nothing is wrong with that, if being "nice" means that I get taken advantage of and stepped on, then I don't want to be it.
I'm that one friend who supports you throughout everything EVEENNN when you and I both know you are in the wrong. I'm that one friend who you tell all of your secrets to because you know you can trust me. I'm also that one friend you can laugh with, dance with, and cry with all in the same night. I mean, I'd really like to think that I'm one heck of a friend! The sad thing is....for us girls its often hard for us to find that one friend for US.
Now, trust me this is not my way of having a pity party but it IS my way of documenting that a change has to happen. And when I write it down, it makes it a whole lot easier to slap in my face and do it. Although I am in college now, girls still play the same mind-games they did in high school and I don't want to go throughout the rest of my life being the way I always have been. Living my life on egg shells, afraid to hurt feelings, avoiding confrontation, aiming to please everyone I feel is depending on me. Note to self: the world will go on with or without you. People will continue to live just the way they were before you came along. And it's true!
So, in relation to the title of this entry, I will aim to have my balls BEFORE Christmas, so Santa won't have to waste his time getting them from...wherever he would get balls from...

To make it official, I will write a public letter to myself with a list of the accomplishments and things I will work on by Christmas. Will I have friends after this change happens? THAT, I cannot promise! But the ones who really love me for me will accept the change and respect it. For the others....don't let the door hit you on  your back side biznitch!

Dear Self,
Can you please try manning up a little bit? I mean seriously, you are letting these people take full control of you! You are way better than that. From here on out, you must and I mean MUST say "no" if you don't want to go somewhere, or do something with someone, or if you literally just can't! You cannot wait on people, slavery is over woman! Listen to your own advice, I mean read your own gosh darn blog if necessary! Why give 100% to a relationship when the other person is only giving 20? No ma'am, not cool. Don't let it happen again. You are a boss! A bad mamma jamma! A five foot, ten inches goddess! So act like it, or else you will spend the rest of your life working under someone else's commands and you will never be satisfied.
You can do this. Stop living in fear! Now, lets grow these balls!

Love,
Cynthea Corfah

A Few Life Lessons from College

Hello friends!
I know I have been M.I.A. from the blogger world, my only excuse is that I have truly been busy and also had a lack of inspiration! But I have found my inspiration. As usual my inspiration this week came from people. You know, when I got to college, I figured I knew everything there is to know about people and that I would be prepared for any and every type of person. Although I still feel that way (insert smiley face) , it doesn't change the type of people I seem to attract...
I'm telling you! I attract the weirdoes, the creeps, the conceited, and the complete b-words. I'm not sure what exactly it is about me that makes people want to tell me their deepest, darkest secrets yet also back-stab me within seconds!
I have been in college for only around 3 months now and I have already been exposed to all the type of people I have listed. I am working on being open-minded to new people, new personalities but to be honest...it's really tough! I mean, not only do I have to waste valuable study time with these people, but it doesn't seem to pay off in the end! So, I have come up with a list of lessons I have learned from the short time I have been here, thanks to the lovely skanks...I mean, ladies I have met!

1) Don't be afraid to say NO.
Temptation is a strong thing! People will always ask you to do things and sometimes these things can interfere with things you KNOW you have to get done. Like tests, due dates, studying. Don't be afraid to say "no" if you have other priorities. Trust me, they won't cry and they will get over it.

2) Make Alternative Plans
Already, I have been ditched THREE times! People make plans with me and then somehow there is a lack of communication and something happens to where our plans don't work out. In reality, they ditched me. What made it more and more frustrating about each time was the fact that I was depending on that ONE plan to work out and when it didn't work out I had no Plan B's or C's. You have to be prepared for the flakers. The flakers: people who flake on you and always back out on the last minute. Come up with alternative plans with either other people or just be prepared to do something for yourself! There should be no shame in your game. Don't let it ruin your night.

3) If you want to go, GO!
This lesson correlates with my last point in #2. If there is an event going on that interests you and you really want to check it out, don't be afraid to! Even if you're alone. You never know who you will see there or who you will meet! Meeting new people and widening your  circle is always a great thing.

4) Be prepared!
When I say be prepared for everything... I mean it! I'm currently in CC's Coffeehouse taking a break from my reading because I just bought a book yesterday that I was supposed to be reading for class. Cramming like this is horrible because I really don't feel like reading, but because I didn't get the book sooner, I am in this predicament. Also! I'm not doing well in this stupid class because you need like 6 different freaking books and I only had one of them. Soooooo, lesson learned! Do whatever it takes and be prepared for anything so that you can do well.

5) Roommates
I think the first lesson I ever learned in college was that roommates are one of the most important choices you will ever make during your time there. They either work out or they don't. And just because you know the person ( or think you do ) doesn't mean it will be the best decision. Choose wisely! Ask them questions ahead of time, get to know them, and make an agreement with them on certain apartment/dorm things that could potentially be an issue. You guys have to have an understanding with each other when it comes to payments, cleanliness, and boundaries. You have any questions for them or expectations? Make sure you ask them and discuss these expectations! Things can get really bad, really fast.

I think that is all for now, but I'm sure I will have more! College is a jerk, a big one at that! It's tough, its crazy, but a lot of us have waited our whole lives to get here. So enjoy it. (:

xoxo

Cynthea

WTF WEDNESDAY: The Job Interview & Kim K

What up though?! You know what day it is! We're back at it guys, its WTF Wednesday! Well, so far my week has been alright. Today has started off with a blah feel. It was a struggle to get up this morning and when I got to school every one seems to be irritating me. (Sorry guys) But I know that after some time with my dear blog, I will feel all better! 

Let's talk about this Kim K & Kanye West thing first! So he has proposed! 

I mean, it's not like I'm surprised or anything. They have a child for goodness sake! BUT then again, she literally just got through a divorce from NBA player, Kris Humphries, but hey! This is celebrity world, they can do stuff like that. Sources have reported that her ring is around 8 million dollars. Talk about a rock! 8 million though? I guess that's just the type of money you have to shell out when you're Kanye, but sheesh, that's mouths that can be fed, houses that can be built, a car (or a couple really) all placed on one little finger. 

WTF? 

Okay, well Kim and Kanye's engagement is already getting enough press, so I'll just stop right there so we can talk about me and my WTF situation.

The Interview 

Wednesday, of last week, I saw some information on the white board in one of my classes. It said, "Good pay! Now hiring students!" and listed a number and website. I've been looking for a job after my job as a cashier at Barnes & Nobles quickly ended (No, I didn't do anything crazy. It was a temporary job). So I thought that little message on the white board was a sign! My boyfriend says I often take stupid things as signs, but I really did think it was! So as soon as I got out of the class I got on my phone, went to the website, and applied. I felt accomplished!

     A few hours later, I got a call from a woman from the company I had applied for and she said she wanted to ask me a few questions. For a second I wasn't sure if I was talking to a prerecorded message or a real person because she felt the need to say my name in every statement she made. 

     She asked, "How did you find out about us CYNTHEA?" I answered. Then she asked, "Do you go to school CYNTHEA?" I answered. Then she said, "Well CYNTHEA, I am glad you chose our company..." and blah blah blah. She gave me the information about where to go, when to be there, and how to dress. That was it! My interview was scheduled for the next day. Quick, huh? Yeah, for a reason!

     Thursday came along and I was all excited! I was excited because I knew I would finally be getting a job and Lord knows I needed it! My mom warned me, jobs like this are usually salesmen jobs and that I'll probably have to call people and do stupid work, but I figured I'd find out anyway. They emphasized on being on time, so I tried to be early, but I ended up getting there the exact time it was scheduled which was good enough for me!  

My spiffy little outfit 

I enter the building feeling all spiffy in my cute little professional outfit I had came up with moments before the interview and was seated in a quiet room with two other girls. One of the girls said she had an emergency call and never came back (now that's a sign!) Then a guy came in  a few moments after she left. So there was three of us. We went through this whole long, stretched out interview process where we filled out an application and had to wait for the managers to come speak to us.

     Finally the lady who would be doing the interview came in and told us about the company...and well...yeah. Do you know what I had applied for ladies and gentlemen? A company that sales knives.....KNIVES! 

You get paid by the appointment, not by the hour, and you have to find your own customers, and overall it was just a FAIL of a job. Trying to be positive about the whole situation, I decided that I would simply take this as a learning experience and I figured at least I was getting interview practice! We were told that at the end of the interview only one of us would get the job. At this point, I really didn't care if I got the job or not, I didn't want it! We were each called into her office to find out the results and how our interview went. When she called my name, I was not a bit of nervous. I walked into her office, she made me answer a few more questions, ya know, "Why should you get this job?" and blah blah blah. Of course I had to make up a bunch of stuff. But... it worked! She stood up, reached for my hand, I shook it, and she said I got the job. 

                                               

Like really? The one job I did not want, I get?! Why must this world play with my life this way? 

To put the cherry on top, after I was done I was expecting my boyfriend to pick me up but because of work duties...he couldn't. So, I walked approximately 3 er so miles home in the humidity all the way home.The next day, I called the company and told them I wouldn't be taking the job (Obviously). Oh what a night that was. A true WTF moment at its finest. 

Lesson to take from this: Find out what EXACTLY you're applying for, before you do!

xoxo

Cynthea 

P.S.

Don't forget to send me your WTF moments so they can be featured in the next WTF Wednesday! 

My Weekend+

Hello loves,

Let's catch up! You haven't heard from me since Wednesday and I've actually done a few things worth talking about since then, so let's chat! We'll start from Saturday!
Saturday
A couple of weeks ago I signed up to get emails from this volunteer group at my school and Friday I got an email for my first volunteer event that I would go to on Saturday. I was very excited! They said we would be going to a homeless children's shelter doing some yard work with them, getting to know them and the facility, and teach them a bit about nutrition. When we were heading there I was expecting a bunch of sad and poor children with big puppy-dog eyes like from those depressing commercials. Instead, there were only 3 kids and they were definitely not little.

The first boy I met said he wanted to go to college in Alabama, not at LSU, and listed all of the sports he had played with a smile on his face. He helped with the yard work and pulled out the tough roots for me. He was polite,kind, and I  just couldn't see what he was doing in this place! After the yard work, I was taking the bags to the dumpster and one of the boys who lived there offered to take it for me. I could tell from the second I met him he was one of those heart-breakers at his school, but he was sweet. Then, after the yard work, I met the only girl. She seemed distant, but once you got to talking, she quickly spoke her mind like you had been best friends for years. I could tell she just wanted some friendship, some female attention. She talked about her favorite rapper and how she can twerk, it was quite hilarious.

I really enjoyed my time their with those kids, they were so inviting and all they needed was some love and good parenting, or in heart-breaker's case: a girlfriend. Yeah, he asked me for my number! I thought it was funny that a 16 year-old was asking me out, just to find out he was 13! What are they feeding these kids?

After my eventful couple hours volunteering I got home, went to my bed and laid there...for hours. I'm not sure if it was me being tired from the yard-work, or if I was just drained from the week overall, but I didn't want to get up! So later that night I got this sudden burst of energy and cleaned everything in the house and did a bit of decorating. My room is a work in progress so there is always something to add! 

I got them to go with my vintage theme

A timeline of all of my photo booth pictures

Sunday 
This day was like a perfect Fall day! It was nice and crisp outside, I had my laptop, and I went to a coffee shop. It was lovely. I went to this cute little (not actually little) coffee shop right off campus. It's really like a writer's heaven. I had just gotten my chai tea and chocolate muffin and sat down at the bar area right next to the window.

As I was settling in, there was this big loud fly buzzing around the window annoying the HECK out of me. I rolled up an old newspaper and WHACKED the stupid thing dead. I felt extremely proud of myself for killing a fly (you know those things are hard to kill) except when I realized where it landed...

Yeah! So I obviously got a new cup of tea and after that nice event, everything was peachy keen!

Monday 
Yesterday was a good Monday! A good monday...what is that, right? Mondays are never good! Well, mine surprisingly was! It started with a cute outfit, if I do say so myself, and ended at this paint war called Splatterbeat.

Today 

It's Tuesday but has definitely felt like a Monday. It was a struggle waking up, but I've been pretty productive I'd like to think! Can't wait for my bed and I to meet up again.

Well, that is it! All wrapped up in a nutshell! If that wasn't exciting enough for you, its WTF Wednesday tomorrow and WTF Wednesdays are wonderful! So, make sure to come back to me tomorrow. 

xoxo

Cynthea 

WTF WEDNESDAYS

Yes! This is me! 

Hey Readers!

So I have really enjoyed the feedback I have been receiving from you all! It is because of you all that I have decided to come up with a blog to look forward to every week! I pretty much write whenever I can, but "WTF Wednesdays" are blog entries you can for sure depend on! Now, what are WTF Wednesdays? They will be blog entries that are about something that happened to me, something that is in the media, or it can be stories I get from YOU GUYS. WTF Wednesday blogs are about situations and things that are just messed up or mind blowing, so it will be fun!
Okay, so let's see if I can paint a picture for you guys. So, it's night time and I'm at Walmart with my mom getting some last minute things before she heads back home and I go back to my college apartment. (When she comes to town she blesses me with the gift of food and house-hold items!) I was wearing an old pair of yoga pants, toms, can't remember what shirt, no make-up and just feeling all around bum-ish.
I was in the beauty side looking for whatever I had run out of at home. As I'm leaving the facial soap aisle, I'm approached by two guys. One guy appeared to be maybe in his late 30's, early 40's, it was hard to tell. I guess his few gold teeth and old 50 cent clothing style may have thrown me off. The other guy, well I didn't even really look at him until the end of the story. So let me tell you how this conversation went.

Mr. Gold Teeth: "Excuse me?" He hesitated to explain what he was about to ask for. "Uh, my daughter, uh, it's her time of the month and..."
Me: Laughing, "Yeah, do you need to know where they are?"
Mr.Gold Teeth: "Yeah! Can you show me please?" 

Now, let me interrupt this real quick. Usually when  strange guys approach me, I brush them off quickly with a slight smile and keep it going! But this guy, for whatever reason, seemed harmless! He was looking for pads for goodness sake! Okay, anywayssss...

Me: Laughing again, "Yeah, ofcourse!"

So I start scanning the aisles looking for the feminine section as they follow behind me. I don't know why but  I couldn't find the aisle!

Me: "Hmmm...I think I must have passed it!"
Mr.Gold Teeth: Saying under his breath, "Yeah, you passed it."

Then suddenly, like a light bulb, it clicked that this goofy looking, 50 Cent wanna-be, old-enough-to-be-my-father-looking man was staring at my rump! Like, seriously? Who uses their "daughter's time of the month" to try and talk to someone? Boy, bye!

Me: "Okay, well I think you know where they are so I hope you find them!" 

I smile, turn around, and start walking my butt away from them, but then...

Mr.Gold Teeth: "Wait, wait a second...what's your name?"
Me: Shaking my head, "Nah, I'm too young for you." 
Mr.Gold Teeth: "How old are you?...Well then why don't you holla at my son real quick?"

Let me make this clear for you guys. A father and son approached me about feminine items for their daughter just to be creepers and eye-rape me, and THEN the old man tries to talk to me but after realizing I was too young for him he suggests HIS SON to talk to me! WTF?!

After he pointed towards his son, I looked at him laughing with disgust, thinking, "Are these people serious?" Then, his son stepped up and asked how old I was and at that point I just walked away. Once I found my mom in the store and told her what had just happened, she laughed and shook her head and we walked to the register, where Mr. Gold Teeth, his son, and a woman (his daughter maybe?) show up behind us and say nothing.

Lesson of the day: Don't help weirdos looking for pads! 

xoxo

Cynthea 

How to Survive Midterms

For a lot of us, this week is known as: Midterm Week.
Midterm week is the week where all the fun in college just STOPS. Your teachers throw this big test at you and expect you to know all of the stuff you have went over so far (which you never do). Sadly, midterms aren't going to just disappear into little particles of glitter, THEY WILL HAPPEN. So the only way to do well on them is to prepare, prepare, prepare! Here is a list just for you (and me) on to survive them!

1) Know your schedule
Find out the order in which your tests take place so you can prioritize. You need to know which test comes first in order to figure out the best way you should study. If you have a planner (which you should) highlight each day you have a test. Then, right down the times each test is scheduled. You don't want to be late or forget about it!

2) Schedule study times
You HAVE to study! Unless you're one of the genius types, you really need to start studying as soon and as much as possible. Whether you're studying in a group or alone, your time needs to be scheduled. You should have a certain amount of time each day that are specifically dedicated to studying and ONLY studying. Use your time wisely and take it seriously.

3)It's okay to be childish!
Bring back the flashcards, highlighters, markers, songs, whatever it takes to memorize the information for the tests! Every time I have a test that has to do with memorization I bring out the flash cards. Sometimes I will even make a song in my head if it's catchy! Don't be embarrassed of your way of studying, because you'll be more embarrassed of the bad grade you get if you don't study.

4) DO NOT CRAM
I know it seems like the easiest thing to do sometimes, or you're just too lazy to study ahead of time, but you HAVE to. As my mom always says, "You never know what will happen tomorrow." It's true! You can't think that you'll save your studying for another day when you really NEVER know what will happen that day. For all you know you may sprain your ankle tomorrow and end up in the hospital, drugged up on medicine, and guess what? No studying for you! So, MAKE SURE YOU DO NOT WAIT FOR THE LAST MINUTE.

5) Get your Z's
The night before a big test, all you want to do is make sure you have soaked all the information in like a sponge, I know! But as a human, you need your sleep to function throughout the day. Staying up all night studying is not the productive way of studying. You will perform better after a good night's sleep, trust me!