#ThrowItBackThursday

Hello dears!

I know I have been horrible with blogging lately and I totally have been skipping my WTF Wednesday blogs. Lo siento mis amigos! So, as I'm sitting here doing this horrible Spanish homework I am jammin' to "Honest" by Future on Pandora. Oh! I have not discussed my small obsession with Future yet, have I? WELLLL, for those of you who live under a rock Future is not only my husband but a rapper. His hit song was "Turn on the Lights." If you haven't heard it before, take a second, and slap yourself right across the face. Okay, after you slap yourself you can watch this video and listen to my dear husband rap/sing about looking for me. (: 

Okay, back to the blog! As much as I'd like to dedicate a whole blog to Future, I won't (not yet). This blog IS about music though and a few of the songs I've been jammin' to...or "throwing it back" to! Music is my life so I'm honestly surprised I haven't done this before. I'll most definitely do it again if YOU, MY READERS, let me know about the songs you are in love with! I can put 'em up here and if you say something about them I can include that too! I've been loving some of the feed back I have been getting by the way. You guys are the ones that keep me writing, seriously. 

Quick shout out to the lovely ladies who sent me these! I love you guys. <3 Your feedback is amazing. 

       

----->Songs I'm Throwing It Back to!<-----

BTW I have  a tendency to like ratchet music, so...prepare your ears for a mix of ratchetness & amazing beats.

1. I Luv This Sh*t- August Alsina 

2. Higher Grounds-TNGHT

3.Honest-Future 

4. Right There (ft. Big Sean)- Ariana Grande 

5.Roots (Brillz Remix)- Kill the Noise 

6. Used 2-2 Chainz *Ratchet Alert*

And finally...an incredibly disturbing music video from Kanye....

7. Bound 2-Kanye West 

These are just a few of the songs I'm currently gettin' it to! I hope you enjoy them as much as I am here in this library! 

xoxo

Cynthea 

All I Want for Christmas is a Pair of Balls

Yeah, I know...the title of this entry is a bit vulgar, huh? Sorry if I offended anyone but you shouldn't be reading this blog if you weren't ready for the real stuff! So boo hoo! When I said I want balls for Christmas I didn't mean that after Christmas I plan on changing my gender, what I mean is that I really need to take my own advice and start being more assertive. It really is true when they say the nice guys finish last! My whole life people have always described me as "nice." Although nothing is wrong with that, if being "nice" means that I get taken advantage of and stepped on, then I don't want to be it.
I'm that one friend who supports you throughout everything EVEENNN when you and I both know you are in the wrong. I'm that one friend who you tell all of your secrets to because you know you can trust me. I'm also that one friend you can laugh with, dance with, and cry with all in the same night. I mean, I'd really like to think that I'm one heck of a friend! The sad thing is....for us girls its often hard for us to find that one friend for US.
Now, trust me this is not my way of having a pity party but it IS my way of documenting that a change has to happen. And when I write it down, it makes it a whole lot easier to slap in my face and do it. Although I am in college now, girls still play the same mind-games they did in high school and I don't want to go throughout the rest of my life being the way I always have been. Living my life on egg shells, afraid to hurt feelings, avoiding confrontation, aiming to please everyone I feel is depending on me. Note to self: the world will go on with or without you. People will continue to live just the way they were before you came along. And it's true!
So, in relation to the title of this entry, I will aim to have my balls BEFORE Christmas, so Santa won't have to waste his time getting them from...wherever he would get balls from...

To make it official, I will write a public letter to myself with a list of the accomplishments and things I will work on by Christmas. Will I have friends after this change happens? THAT, I cannot promise! But the ones who really love me for me will accept the change and respect it. For the others....don't let the door hit you on  your back side biznitch!

Dear Self,
Can you please try manning up a little bit? I mean seriously, you are letting these people take full control of you! You are way better than that. From here on out, you must and I mean MUST say "no" if you don't want to go somewhere, or do something with someone, or if you literally just can't! You cannot wait on people, slavery is over woman! Listen to your own advice, I mean read your own gosh darn blog if necessary! Why give 100% to a relationship when the other person is only giving 20? No ma'am, not cool. Don't let it happen again. You are a boss! A bad mamma jamma! A five foot, ten inches goddess! So act like it, or else you will spend the rest of your life working under someone else's commands and you will never be satisfied.
You can do this. Stop living in fear! Now, lets grow these balls!

Love,
Cynthea Corfah

A Few Life Lessons from College

Hello friends!
I know I have been M.I.A. from the blogger world, my only excuse is that I have truly been busy and also had a lack of inspiration! But I have found my inspiration. As usual my inspiration this week came from people. You know, when I got to college, I figured I knew everything there is to know about people and that I would be prepared for any and every type of person. Although I still feel that way (insert smiley face) , it doesn't change the type of people I seem to attract...
I'm telling you! I attract the weirdoes, the creeps, the conceited, and the complete b-words. I'm not sure what exactly it is about me that makes people want to tell me their deepest, darkest secrets yet also back-stab me within seconds!
I have been in college for only around 3 months now and I have already been exposed to all the type of people I have listed. I am working on being open-minded to new people, new personalities but to be honest...it's really tough! I mean, not only do I have to waste valuable study time with these people, but it doesn't seem to pay off in the end! So, I have come up with a list of lessons I have learned from the short time I have been here, thanks to the lovely skanks...I mean, ladies I have met!

1) Don't be afraid to say NO.
Temptation is a strong thing! People will always ask you to do things and sometimes these things can interfere with things you KNOW you have to get done. Like tests, due dates, studying. Don't be afraid to say "no" if you have other priorities. Trust me, they won't cry and they will get over it.

2) Make Alternative Plans
Already, I have been ditched THREE times! People make plans with me and then somehow there is a lack of communication and something happens to where our plans don't work out. In reality, they ditched me. What made it more and more frustrating about each time was the fact that I was depending on that ONE plan to work out and when it didn't work out I had no Plan B's or C's. You have to be prepared for the flakers. The flakers: people who flake on you and always back out on the last minute. Come up with alternative plans with either other people or just be prepared to do something for yourself! There should be no shame in your game. Don't let it ruin your night.

3) If you want to go, GO!
This lesson correlates with my last point in #2. If there is an event going on that interests you and you really want to check it out, don't be afraid to! Even if you're alone. You never know who you will see there or who you will meet! Meeting new people and widening your  circle is always a great thing.

4) Be prepared!
When I say be prepared for everything... I mean it! I'm currently in CC's Coffeehouse taking a break from my reading because I just bought a book yesterday that I was supposed to be reading for class. Cramming like this is horrible because I really don't feel like reading, but because I didn't get the book sooner, I am in this predicament. Also! I'm not doing well in this stupid class because you need like 6 different freaking books and I only had one of them. Soooooo, lesson learned! Do whatever it takes and be prepared for anything so that you can do well.

5) Roommates
I think the first lesson I ever learned in college was that roommates are one of the most important choices you will ever make during your time there. They either work out or they don't. And just because you know the person ( or think you do ) doesn't mean it will be the best decision. Choose wisely! Ask them questions ahead of time, get to know them, and make an agreement with them on certain apartment/dorm things that could potentially be an issue. You guys have to have an understanding with each other when it comes to payments, cleanliness, and boundaries. You have any questions for them or expectations? Make sure you ask them and discuss these expectations! Things can get really bad, really fast.

I think that is all for now, but I'm sure I will have more! College is a jerk, a big one at that! It's tough, its crazy, but a lot of us have waited our whole lives to get here. So enjoy it. (:

xoxo

Cynthea